It has been 2 weeks since I rolled into the state of Missouri and unlocked the front door of my new home. Two weeks of experiencing hot temperatures, humidity that feels like I'm breathing underwater, and--even more horrifically--mosquitoes. Lest I paint it to be a completely negative picture, it's not all bad, not at all. There is greenery all around, and the sight of acres of mature trees is beautiful. Lightening bugs bring a little bit of whimsical delight to my evenings, as do my neighbors cats that are allowed outside for a few hours at dusk. I've enjoyed some mini-adventures with my mother. Experiencing our relationship face to face has warmed my soul.
And yet...
Time for a confession: I'm scared. Scared that I won't find meaningful work. Scared that I only traded locations and that my life will continue to seemingly go nowhere.
That fear has limited my stepping out, ensuring that my life won't move forward! Kind of silly I suppose. But here I am, acknowledging it. Sometimes recognizing what it is I'm doing helps me take ownership of the situation and nudges me into change.
Confession: I have been apathetic.
Confession: I have the tools to change.
In my next post I'll be reiterating what it is that God has called me to, as a reminder to myself, but also to prompt me forward. Pursuing who God had has designed me to be and to step into it.
See you soon!
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