Monday, July 30, 2012

I Will Live Out My Calling

A friend had posted this quote on Pinterest recently, which is where I read it, felt its humble words prick my heart, and my spirit agreed with this simple sentence.

I've been bolstering my courage and been bringing to mind the things God has equipped me with, and the desires He has placed in my heart.

Right out of the gate, I know God has equipped me to give His hope and truth to those who are in such desperate need of it.  Now, He's still teaching me about this, softening my heart at times, and I admit I have much to learn.  But this is a burden that does not leave me, and as God promises, it is not heavy but light.  I feel a joy flood through me when I think about being able to play a part in a young woman's journey from hopelessness to understanding her identity in Christ.  Knowing in your head is far different from knowing in your heart and living it out.
Right now I look at job descriptions and I feel trepidation start to paralyze me.  Can I really do what that location wants?  Do I have the skills to make an impact in someone's life, to give them the tools they will need to transform?  I'm probably not qualified enough...  And yet, I am reminding myself that God did not give me a spirit of fear or timidity, but one of boldness, love, and self-discipline (see 2 Timothy 1:7).  I might need some self-discipline to get myself together in doing my part, but God has already equipped me with His spirit, His power, and His love.  I just need to be faithful and see what He will do with me.

I feel like this is a subject that needs to be unpacked even further as I have barely gotten into it, so expect this theme to come up again!